18.7.06
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COWS GO MOO !
11:08 PM
As if
Well i really dont know what I'm doing anymore, maybe cause I'm so freaking in denial, trying to keep myself occupied with superficial things. Its so hard to try not to laugh when stuff are really so damn funny, and because of that i'm feeling deprived ): like I cant even swollow properly let alone laugh. oh and I felt so bad for mel I tried to sing during worship but i think i was so off, stupid throat, oh well, let's just hope they'll be more enthu next time round. And Edward makes me laugh, and his salt and pepper shakers were damn cute la.
And a big thankyou to niangzi and johny and a few others for being my world, not forgetting van for her damnit painful massages, and niangzi was damn sweet (: sorry I couldnt go to your place for movies ): If it werent for you all i wouldnt want to even come to school <3
I dont know to feel happy/reliefed or sad for you considering I havent seen you in about a week, well at least you're meeting iggy tmr i can relax. Although I'm not exactly your closest friend, it pains me to see you this way, not knowing what you maybe doing this very moment and how much I wish I could help. And maybe just stop to think, your life ain't that bad if you foucs only on the happy stuff. They can compare all they want, but who are they to judge you anyway? Dont ask me nit to worry, you dont know how hard it is not to. You really have flowery vocab ;D
oh and cheer up ivan (:
And reality is falling like a final curtain to my feet.